Follow Your Heart

Do you follow your heart more, or your mind more?

I tend to follow my heart more, which really gets me into trouble sometimes because when I do follow my mind, my heart says, "Hey! What are you doing?! Your mind doesn't know what it's thinking. Follow me instead!"

I've been debating about graduate school. My mind is telling me, "you need to get a good score on your GREs so that you can go to a school with prestige." My heart is telling me, " You need to stop thinking about just going to a prestigious college and think about what you really want to do. Put your pride and ego down. Cal states can offer the same kind of education, especially when they have a good program that's of interest to you."

I'm also debating whether or not I may be settling for second best when I know I could do better. I know I can do better, but can I afford that? Honestly, I can't. I can't afford to take another GRE test knowing that it really doesn't matter. The GRE has been trying to make me feel like I'm not as intelligent as others who score higher than I did. The thing is, the GRE doesn't measure my level of intelligence. It does not measure my passion for helping others. It definitely does not measure my level of success. So, I say, F the GRE. It will not stop me from furthering my education just because some schools decided that they need the GRE scores in order to find good candidates for their graduate programs.

Anyway, I have been wasting my time and racking my brain over this. God did not put me into this world to be useless. I have a purpose and as long as I am striving to be the best version of me, I will do great things. I know Mother Theresa said to do little things with great love. But I say, why not do both great things with great love?

On a side note:
I followed my heart and it may have hurt people, but I was honest with myself, and most importantly, I was honest with them. If honesty wasn't enough, then I'm sorry. That's all I could offer.