41 Ways to Melt a Woman's Heart

So I was listening to Ryan Seacrest on kiis fm and he was talking about this. I dunno but I sorta don't agree with some of these "ways."

1. Ask her to dance.
2. On windy days, brush wayward strands of hair from her eyes and mouth.
3. When she’s coming down the street, across the room, or up the stairs to meet you, walk towards her as soon as you see her.
4. Kiss her between her shoulder blades when she turns her back to you to go to sleep.
5. Put your arm around her when you introduce her to your friends and family.
6. Grasp her hand when a scantily dressed, beautiful woman walks by.
7. Call her when you’re feeling sad.
8. Kiss her eyelids.
9. Ask to see a picture of her when she was a child.
10. Wash her from head to toe in the shower.
11. If she’s crying on the phone, go over to her place. Immediately.
12. Stand her naked on a sturdy chair and lick between her legs.
13. Occasionally call her by her first and middle names.
14. Buy her your favourite rock album of all time on vinyl.
15. Order coffee for her, remembering exactly how she likes it.
16. Undress her and put her to bed when she falls asleep in the car.
17. Mention your upcoming anniversary before she does.
18. Send her something in the mail. Anything.
19. When she’s feeling insecure, stare into her eyes and tell her there is no-one in the world who could be as right for you as she is.
20. Call her just before you get on the plane.
21. Pick her clothes up off the floor.
22. Try desperately to make her laugh when she’s feeling down.
23. Take her to see your favourite sport live. Pay more attention to her than to the game.
24. Touch her arm when you leave the table to go to the bathroom. Touch her again when you come back.
25. Shave just before you see her. She’ll notice.
26. Hug her when she gets jealous. Hug her hard.
27. Worship her breasts.
28. Give her jewellery.
29. Hand her two towels when she gets out of the shower. (The second one is for her hair.)
30. Ask her specific questions about her work.
31. Keep her favourite cereal on hand.
32. In the middle of a conversation, tell her you love her.
33. Send her very expensive flowers when you screw up.
34. Take her to a cabin with a fireplace. Build her a fire.
35. Moan her name when she goes down on you.
36. Read her a story when it’s her turn to drive during a long road trip.
37. Offer to fix something at her place that you realise is broken.
38. Notice when she’s wearing something new.
39. Make love to her standing up, against a wall.
40. Kiss her hand in front of your most die-hard bachelor buddies.
41. If she’s too stressed to want sex..
a. Run a bath for her.
b. Give her a full-body massage.
c. Ask if she wants to wrestle.

"buy her your favorite rock album of all time on vinyl"? wth. That wouldn't make me melt. But that's just me.

How bout you? lol

I realize that I've been very busy and neglecting a lot of things/people. I feel so afraid sometimes. It's like I don't know how to deal with my own emotions and I"m afraid that if I engage in long enough conversations with people, I'd end up bawling or doing something beyond my control because of my uncontrollable emotions. I hesitate to call people because I'm afraid of just blanking out or feeling like I need to get off the phone before I break. It seems like I'm busy now but in reality, I'm much more busy then I believe I am. There are so many things going on that are overwhelming me and I'm mustering every bit of strength I have or think I have to handle this.

I want to break away from you, because I don't trust myself when I'm around you; at least not enough yet. I just want to be able to say that all my feelings are legit but how can I say that when my emotions are bunged up. I'm sorry I got you into this mess but you can still get out of it.

"La la la la la la la life is wonderful..."

So tired. Whoever said school was easy is INSANE! I feel like I'm one step closer to the edge of a cliff. Hopefully by the time I have no more steps to take, I'll be wearing a parachute and I'll land on water. haha.

I should go to bed but I don't know what's keeping me awake. I guess it's a mixture of everything that's been happening. I'm sorta trying to get out of this big puddle of fear. Fear of letting go, encountering new things/people, fear of moving on. Here's a great song. I usually use songs to express myself when I can't find the words to do it.

It's so hard to rebuild yourself. You want to become a new person and put the past behind you but it's hard when people still hold that image of you in their minds. It's almost like they won't allow you to change for the better. Who wants to live when their names always follow a warning sign.

Warning! Becky's indecisive and has hurt a lot of people in the past.
Warning! John is a player.
Warning! Lily is not good at being faithful.

....how do you expect these people to change and improve on certain things about themselves if you don't leave those thoughts behind first? It makes it so hard for people to accept themselves when they know others have not.

Just a thought.

I miss you Dad.
I wish you were here.
You'd wipe away these tears.

I'm angry. I don't know how long I can take this before I really break. For real.

WARNING! Tracy's running out of effing patience.