Chapter 22

I'm finally a college graduate. It is actually pretty surreal. Even after the walking, the pictures, the congratulations...I still feel like this weekend was a dream. I can't believe that 4 years have passed and I'm now done with college. It's scary thinking about grad school and what I will be doing this year. I know that wherever God decides to take me, I'm going to make the best of it and enjoy every moment.

I've met great people and developed many powerful friendships. But the reality of life is that not everything will go your way. I've gained many friends but I've also lost some. Some I've lost fully and some I feel like I'm losing. I'm thankful, though, for this chance to be put in this situation. It's only through losing people that you realize how much they really mean to you and how much you meant to them. I have no intention of holding on to friendships that are harmful to my growth and the other person's.

There are friendships that I wish were stronger or didn't get weak. Some things are out of my control and I wish I could make everything right. I feel so hurt when I see that a friend is hurt because of me...mainly because I can't or don't really know what to do to make it better. I'm sorry that I'm inadequate in that area.

The only thing I can do is put my faith in God and trust that if he wants me to remain connected with certain people, there will always be opportunities for us to reconnect.

This is the next chapter. I can't avoid the downs of life, but I know I can try to write great moments and experiences. I'm ready for this. My pen's in hand...