Commitment...or not

What makes someone committed to something? It's such a tough choice to make, to be committed to someone or something. You have to love, want, desire, need it. Right?

For some reason, I've been drifting away from a lot of things I used to be very committed to. There's just this force that pulls me away. It's the fear of gossips and people looking down on you for being human. It's a loss of trust. I have a desire to come back, but the thought of being ridiculed keeps me from wanting to come back.

Is it bad that I would just like to live my life NOT under a radar? Must I broadcast every news that happens in my life to everyone? I'm so tired of feeling like my decisions to be happy is making other unhappy. I wanna go back to when there was no drama. When I'm just happy being me. I wanna go back to when people didn't talk about you behind your back. I wanna go back to when there were no secrets. Some secrets need not be revealed for the truth to be revealed.

If you've only heard my story through someone else, you know nothing about me. Please don't judge me based on rumors. If you really wanna know, just ask me. I'm your most reliable source.

Thanks.