Good Goodbyes

Is there such a thing as a good goodbye?

I've been thinking a lot about that lately. I used to think that TV dramas, especially Korean dramas, are dramatic because they leave things out to create the drama but in reality, it wouldn't be that way.

For example.

Say there's two guys and a girl. The girl loves one of the guys (guy #1), but can't tell him because the two guys are best friends and the other guy (guy #2) loves her. There's a big love triangle but things can't be spoken.

That's just one example, but I feel like there's a possibility that my life could be that dramatic too. There are things that I can't say for the sake of someone else, even though I'm being ridiculed for it. I guess it's okay though, because as long as I know I'm doing the right thing, then it doesn't matter what people think. God knows and that's all that matters.

I've been debating about whether or not to stick around. I'm not sure that I can. At least not now. I feel like I've tried to keep the water running for as long as I could, and it might have run dry already. I didn't listen to anyone when they told me about my self-worth. I'm beginning to see where I stand.

God is definitely taking care of me through my community of friends. I didn't know that I would be joining everyone in Mammoth last weekend. I actually got my mom's approvable and packed in 10 minutes on Friday night. We headed out to Mammoth at around midnight when everyone was picked up. It was almost like it was meant to happen. I snowboarded for the first time! Mammoth snow is the best! It's so soft and fluffy. Falling on my butt has never been so much fun! Except during the second round, when it got windy and I was overly confident. I ate it, and fell on my ribs. It's still bruised up from the inside, but advil helped ease the pain. Mammoth was truly a beautiful place to be. During the lift, I got to see the slopes from up high. It was so beautiful and white! It made me think. I would've missed out on this had things been different.

I really believe that if you really want something, you'll do anything to get it. I did everything I could for what I wanted and I will continue to do everything in my power to preserve happiness, even if I have to go through the pain first.