Sunday, May 11, 2008

when will my heart beat again

It's been a long year and we're only in May. I feel like I've been completely overwhelmed by so many different things..to the point where I don't really know how to feel anymore. My feelings take sporadic turns every now and then, and I find myself wiping my eyes and pretending like something just flew into them to hide the real reason.

I'm sorry that this had to happen. I'm sorry that we couldn't control our feelings. I'm sorry that you keep blaming yourself when it's not really your fault.

I don't really like hearing "I wish you the best" because it sounds like something you would say to someone who you're planning on not seeing for a really long time.

This is a prayer for all of us.

Good evening Lord God. It's been a long day, and I'm so thankful that You've helped me make it through. Lord God, we are all unworthy of Your love, but I pray that Your love will be strong enough to break the walls that we have built to keep you away. Lord God, open our hearts so that we may receive your most Holy Spirit. Grant us with patience so that we may be able to see the goodness that You have planned for us. Lord God, I know that times are so uncertain...especially right now, but I trust in You. I trust that You will make it clear for us. Lord God, please watch over those who are in the most pain and desolation. I feel like dying right now Lord God, but you give me life. You're the air that I breathe. I'm sorry for taking life for granted, and for not recognizing the most special gift You've given to me. Lord God, I pray that You will give us strength to overcome these obstacles and to continue to carry these heavy crosses that we have because even though we may think our crosses are heavy, Your cross was the heaviest, yet you carried it to the end. Because You died for us Lord God, I will live for You. I life up this prayer to you Lord God, through the Blessed intercession of Mama Mary. Amen.

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