There are some things I just don't understand. Sometimes when I think about everything that has happened, that's happening, and will happen, I just get a mixture of frustration, contentment, satisfaction, anger, sadness...you name it, I probably felt it. Is it really anyone's fault that you just feel the way you do? I feel a lil bit angry right now when I think about certain things. I feel like it is all my fault that some things aren't right. But is it really my fault? I dunno. Maybe.

I really just wanna scream right now...wait, I'm a lil thirsty. sigh. It's been a long day...but good day. Lots of walking, sightseeing, talking, picture taking, laughing, smiling...sharings that were happy....and some that were sad...angry...Lots of surprises.

I'm just trying to absorb it all right now and as physically strained as I am, I still need to just sit and take it all in. I don't really know what is ahead of me but all I know is that I may be alive today, but gone tomorrow. If I don't take advantage of the chances that are given to me today it may not be there by tomorrow, or I may not be there.

I went to Old Town San Diego today and the first place I went to was the church. I sat in the second pew and meditated for a while. I was really trying to talk to Him. I'm not sure how long I stayed in there for, but the time that I sat in the pew meditating felt like a long while. I really wanted to talk to Him. Then I went over to the Blessed Sacrament. I stood there and looked up at Mother Mary. For some reason, when I started praying, I was on the verge of tears. It wasn't something I felt in a long while and in a way, it felt very rejuvenating.

Wow, my mind must be working overtime cuz I'm starting to feel my energy level drop a whole octave. (haha..lame musical joke)

Alright, even though I don't know what's in store for tomorrow, I can only say that I will approach it with hope, honesty, understanding, and love. That couldn't have sounded any cornier...so, I'll leave it at that.

Good night.