Once again, my belief has been confirmed which explains why I could not go back...

instability...change of mind every few days...I do not have enough strength or patience for that.

Why do I focus on just one that drains me so much when there are so many others who shower me with love everyday? This is the reason why I can't go back...because I'm not loved genuinely.

I guess I was looking for a lil bit of sacrifice...

I could've not gone to Vietnam...I could've just not replied to any AIM messages...I could've just walked away...

I didn't. It hurt. I hung on.

Now...what now?