Saturday, February 14, 2009

I find it extremely unfair that when I've actually tried to share and express my feelings and concerns, I don't get a reply, especially from the person who was so concerned about our friendship falling apart. here's the deal.

Four friends, about 6 years friendship but now it's nothing. Why do some people have to be so self righteous that they can't accept that they've done something wrong? Be humble enough to just accept that you were being hurtful. There's a difference between someone saying something hurtful but unintentionally, and someone who says it with that intention. I know my faults, do you know yours? I doubt it.

For two of us, I don't think anything will salvage this friendship. For the others, maybe you're too caught up with your own lives and are too busy. That's cool. It's hard to reach out when you feel like you'd be a burden. When you start questioning whether or not to share things with your friends, is that a bad sign? I feel like it's a horrible sign.

I find it odd that I'm always waiting. Like waiting for an answer...waiting for people to get back to me, waiting for things to change, I dunno...just waiting for something. It's really nerve wracking when you don't really know when you're gonna get that message and what that message is gonna say. I go on facebook everyday feeling anxious because there's a chance that I'm gonna get that response. So, when do you give up? It's sad to think you have to give up your friendships with people who were so close to you once. But I guess things change, people change, you change, and life changes.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

You know what else is wrong and unfair? Being caught up with the things you want so much that you neglect something that you already have; the friends that was/is always there for you, who went through the difficult times with you, and are still around to care for you. You may believe that you're losing the friends you once considered "besties", but there are those that are still around, even if you're not aware of it. I honestly think you should stop chasing the past and really look towards the future. Learn to let go of some of the things that are constantly dragging your life down. Savage the friendship that really matters. Even after all that have happened, you still have people that will support you and love you. (ie. the person writing this right now) Instead of waiting, how about reaching; but only to those that really do care. Take some time to reflect and really figure out what/who is important to you. Just my honestly opinion. If you disagree, then I'm sorry.

itsmetracy said...

hmm...thanks for that Jimmy, but I'm not saying that I don't appreciate the other friends I have.

It's not easy to let go of a 6 year friendship with so many great memories.

Just because I'm focused on one group of friends who mean something to me in this blog, doesn't mean they are the ONLY ones.

Waiting is a part of life. It's inevitable. We all have to wait sometimes.

I can only do one thing at a time. I'm sorry that you don't think I reach out to you...but maybe you should stop having expectations.

THAT is my honest opinion.

Anonymous said...

You know...my response wasn't just about me...I'm sorry if you feel that I always make things about myself, but honestly...this was not about me. If you've notice, I used the word "people". What I'm talking about isn't just about this blog, it goes beyond this blog as well.