Okay. So it happened yet again. You know, I'm pretty stubborn. It's like I'll take me out of myself for a couple seconds, and realize I'm just crazy. I ask myself all the time...when will I stop trying? When will I stop neglecting my own feelings just for the sake of holding on to something? But you know, it doesn't matter how love affects you...it's your choice. And, I guess it's my choice to make myself vulnerable to heart breaks after heart breaks. God gives me strength but He's gotta give me something to test it, otherwise it serves no purpose....no meaningful purpose at least.

I will keep on persevering, until God tells me I need to stop. I know I'm being tested, and I'm tired of failing.

I am also in charge of my own happiness, so it's about time I take control.