Mission Accomplished

It was 1:04am. I took out a pen and a note pad. I began jotting down whatever was running through my mind of memories I had of the last 6 years of my life. If I had written down everything that I could remember, I would probably finish the whole note pad, but I ended at, if I can remember correctly, 6 pages. Somehow, writing it all down made me feel good. I no longer felt pain, or at least the pain I had once felt for a while. This was the beginning of the end. I said my last goodbye...well, not directly.

I checked my phone and 2 hours had gone by. I set my alarm for 6am, said my prayer, and went to sleep...well, I tried to. It wasn't long before I was awakened by the sound of my phone's alarm. I wiped my eyes and did a little stretch. I laid in bed for a couple of seconds thinking, boy, I slept through the night and today's the day. I got up in the midst of darkness, put on a jacket and head out.

My mission was about to begin as I turned on the ignition. "Oh no!" I said. The engine was dying on me and the only thing that was keeping it going was my foot on the gas pedal. If I let go, the engine would've died. I was determined, though, to set out before sunrise. So, with one foot on the gas pedal and the other on the breaks, I reversed and drove out of my driveway. Low and behold, the engine kept going. It didn't die! Success!

So I began driving. My heart was beating a bit faster than usual because of the anticipation. I hadn't driven down this road in so long. Before I knew it, I was making a left turn into the neighborhood. As I came closer, I felt my foot lift from the pedal. As I slowly drove up to the corner, I took in a deep breath.

Now, I had to be quick on my feet and as discreet as possible. I carried it to the front door, took a second to feel the presence of those sleeping inside, and laid it down as gently as possible. I, then, felt the urge to run, so I ran to my car, shut the door, took in another deep breath, and drove away.

I was proud of myself. I was doing so well...until...I felt tears streaming down my cheeks. I couldn't help it but it was okay to be vulnerable. I just allowed my tears to flow. That was it. It was done, and I drove home alone.

"For he's a jolly good fellow..."