Let's see...today, I woke up pretty early...earlier than I've been waking up since I have no school or work to wake up for. I think sleeping in has been both good and bad for me. I feel like I'm lazier, I'm not drinking enough water, I'm not eating as healthy. The last few weeks of school, I started a game plan. I was drinking 2 and some bottles of water, cereal for breakfast, ham sandwich and carrots, for lunch, and whatever my mom made for dinner. That was pretty good. But because school ended, my whole routine fell apart. It makes me a little disappointed in myself. I had a goal, and just because something changed, my goal dissolved into laziness, unhealthy eating, no water. sigh. I'd like to think that I have enough control over myself to keep to a goal, but I guess I have a lot to work on.

Right now, Lakers are losing and it's may or may not be causing this mean headache that I'm having. Maybe it's because I've been on my butt since 3. So, I woke up early to go get my legs waxed. I haven't done that in a long time, and it felt good. Goodbye hairy legs! After that I went to one of my old time friends, since 1st grade, to hang out with her. Her little sister's graduation was today so she asked if I could do her hair and make her up. So, I did her hair while we watch Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants. Then I did her makeup. She looked hot. It was nice to have sorta down time with her since we hardly see each other. After that, I stopped by Sephora to make an exchange and then went home. My mom was already home cooking. So, I had some yummy food she made and I think my tummy was satisfied by then...or maybe not, cus I kept on wanting to eat more. Seee!! Messed up my healthy routine man!

Anyway, I've been watching tv since then and the finals now. I'm a little annoyed right now. I keep thinking priorities. What makes things more important and do the same things always stay of the same importance? I don't know if that makes any sense. But, if your bf or gf is important, will they always be up there in your list of priorities? Maybe not and that's totally ok. But, when it's compared to something else....agghh...nevermind. Maybe I'm just really really annoyed right now. I feel like I'm making myself overly available and it's not being reciprocated. I could bring this up but I'm not ready right now. So, I'm resorting to writing about it. If it gets read by the right person/people, then I guess at least they'll know how I feel.

It sounds like this is some sort of conditional way of doing things...sorta like I do this for you, how come you don't for me? But I think I deserve it. It takes two to tango right? At least that's how I learned the dance. Sometimes one person falls short and that's fine...but if one person feels like he/she is always giving more, that sucks. Yes, I know I need to be patient and understanding...but somewhere along that line, I also NEED it. It's a struggle to be a person who has to deal with something they can't control. But it's also a struggle to be a person who's trying to support the person who has to deal with something they can't control. I know I'm getting really wordy with this, but I can't really divulge too much.

aghhhh...my head really really hurts now. WTF!