Why do I feel hated sometimes..? It's like some people force a smile just to be nice but talk about me when I'm not there. I guess when people don't know the whole story, there tends to be a bias. But, I wish people didn't judge me based on what others say about me. I know I've hurt many I didn't want to hurt, but it was never intentional, and there are things people think they know about me, but they don't.

Assumptions suck.

I dunno why I feel happy and sad at the same time. Happy because I finally heard the words that I was longing to hear from the person I wanted to hear from. Happy because I felt loved, special. Sad....sad because there's someone..or maybe some people who are hurt because of me. Should I be selfish and disregard others' judgments just because what I have makes me happy....or throw away my own happiness for the sake of others'.

Argg. I wish I could be selfish and not feel bad about it.

Anyway, these are little messages to some important people in my life.

Thank you for sharing your life with me and for making me feel so special. I value your sharings, and I'm grateful for your patience. I love you.

Thank you for being my #1...but most importantly, for being an awesome listener. Thank you for trusting in me.

We matched today! Thanks for going on random trips to the mall with me and for confiding in me. I'm glad you trust me enough to do that. I know I don't say it enough, but thank you for thinking of me...

and...

Thank you for smiling today. A million thanks wouldn't be enough and would never amount to all that you've done for me. I really do appreciate you. I might not be able to catch you when you fall, but I can put band-aids on your bruises and cuts....only if you let me.

I'm sharing this because even though I may feel judged wrongly sometimes, I know that there are some people who will take me as I am.

Good night world...and don't forget to give thanks and be grateful for what you have.