I think I'm really spoiled. I've gotten so much more than I could ever ask for, but sometimes I take advantage of this. I don't deserve any of it at all. I think I'm really selfish. Someone shared at the meeting that the things that God wants you to do are the things that you don't want to do, the things that are hardest to do. Sometimes I feel really weak. It's like I want so much to feel happy that sometimes I don't want to realize that what I'm doing is selfish. Sigh. I'm sorry.