It took me a while to recall what I did on Thursday. My memory is getting worse everyday. This is the first Thanksgiving weekend without my dad. I feel like I'm sort of taking over my mom's role. She used to buy the Christmas gifts, cards, etc. Now, I'm the one worrying about Christmas and how it's gonna be this year. I woke up at 4:30am to go Christmas shopping. I've never done that before! I've been having little "arguments" with my mom about not being in the spirit. Thanksgiving night, I came home from visiting Joy's mom and there was one light on in my house. My mom was working and my grandma was in her room. My brother wasn't home at all. I wanted to buy chicken, mash potatoes, and corn for our Thanksgiving dinner, but I ended up eating leftover food from the birthday "party" we went to earlier that day. I guess that's okay but I hate being the only one that tries. I felt so hurt when my mom said that she doesn't want to bother anyone and if we can be home, that's great, if not that's fine. I dunno, it doesn't seem like she sees that I'm trying. I've got so much going on at one time that I'm just so close to giving up. There's about 20 days left before Christmas mass, and we haven't started practice. Not many people confirmed about singing, so I don't even know who's gonna sing. I have my GRE test coming in around the same time, and I'm definitely not ready. Does my mom know this? Probably not.
I went to the doctor's today to get my results for the blood test that I took a few weeks ago. Fortunately, results were okay...however, I had to get another blood test today to check for umm...it doesn't matter..the point is, I hate getting blood tests, and the freaking testing equipment was bad or something today, because it took forever to take my blood out. The nurse said that it's been happening to everyone today.
Anyway, I wanted to put up the tree and the lights outside...but my mom said, why put up lights? It's just gonna increase electricity bill...sigh. Ask me why I still have the energy? I have no idea. I'm really tired.
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