After 10am and noon mass today and helping Liwanag Alumni pack lunches for Liwanag retreatants, I decided that I wanted to pick up a book. I went to Barnes and Noble in search of a great book to read. I walked towards the Psychology section first but didn't see anything that catered to what I was looking for. I turned over to the Self-Improvement shelves and didn't find anything worth reading. Then I roamed over to the Christian books and saw some pretty awesome books, but to buy all of them would burn a whole through my tiny little wallet. So, I decided to go home. When I got home, I looked at my own book shelf and found a book someone had given to me as a gift. The Purpose Driven Life. I was set. I got my book and was going to head out to a nearby park to read. I had been feeling tired since after noon mass, and so in the car I started to doze off. Before I knew it, I fell asleep in my car.
My mom drove into the drive way and I quickly awoke. I didn't want her to scold me for sleeping in the car. So, I came into my house and decide to fix something light to eat. When I was finished I decided to browse the web. I hadn't been to this particular website in a while-fear being one of the reasons. But, today I decided that if this is the only way I could get some kind of update, I would give it a whirl. So I did. I typed in the address and somehow while the page was loading, I felt very nervous and anxious. It's sort of what I'm feeling right now as I'm writing this. The page began to load and I was bombarded with SO MUCH to read. I quickly searched for the beginning of where I left off.
I feel this sense of joy in my heart. God is really listening to my prayers.
I can't help but think about this song. I thought about it while I was reading one of the entries.
"I'd Rather"
I thought sometime alone
was what we really needed
you said this time would hurt more than it helps
but I couldn't see that
I thought it was the end
of a beautiful story
and so I left the one I loved at home to be alone (alone)
and I tried to find
out if this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've had a change of heart
I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
whoo-oo-oo-oo yeah
And then I met someone
and thought she could replace you
we got a long just fine
we wasted time because she was not you
we had a lot of fun
though we knew we were faking
love was not impressed with our connection built on lies, all lies
so I'm here cause I found this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've had a change of heart
I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
who holds my heart
I can't blame you if you turn away from me, like I've done you,
I can only prove the things I say with time,
please be mine,
I'd rather have bad times with (please be mine) you,
than good times with someone else (I know)
I'd rather be beside you in a storm (anytime),
than safe and warm by myself (so sure baby)
I'd rather have hard times to gether,
than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart (my heart)
I'd rather have bad times with you (surely),
than good times with someone else (surely)
I'd rather be beside you in a storm (oh yeah),
than safe and warm by myself (all by myself)
I'd rather have hard times together,
than to have it easy apart (you know it)
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
whoooo.....who holds my heart
-Luther Vandross
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