Finished

And so it's done. My project is finished and I've gotta say. I'm pretty proud of myself. I think it's worth it even if some people think I'm wasting my time. After all, we should "love like there's no tomorrow" right?

So, I had been thinking about that. I heard it in a song at Emmanuel's meeting. If today was my last day on Earth, how would I live it? How would I love? I would love 'til it hurts. I would love with humility. Some people may call me hopeless romantic, or even pathetic. But, at least at the end of it all, I can say that I really gave it my all, and I really loved 'til it hurt. There wouldn't be any what ifs, because I would've done it all.

Anyway, since I've had so much time alone at home because my grandma and mom sleep with the baby at my aunt's house, I've been able to feel what it's like to really be alone. I've gotta admit, I like it. I like having the time to myself. I do feel lonely...but I think it's good for me to feel lonely...to accept my loneliness at times...to call on Jesus when I'm lonely.

I've been thinking a lot about what I want to start doing. I really want to build something. I really want to build a house. I was thinking of doing Habitat for Humanity. That would be so fun! I know I've mentioned this before but I want to travel to other countries to help build homes for the poor and feed the hungry. I sent in my grad school applications already, but if for any reason, I don't get accepted anywhere, I really would not mind traveling and doing some labor intensive stuff....get my hands dirty! Sometimes I find myself day dreaming about this stuff. I've also thought about having a companion on this journey. It would be so nice to have someone who's as passionate about doing this kind of stuff as I am. We could just travel the world together...building one house at a time..haha...now I kinda wanna get up and jump around. Wait...lemme just do that real quick....

Phew! okay. That was a lot of adrenaline. haha
Anyway, I should probably calm myself down before I go to bed. It's unhealthy to go to bed when your heart isn't beating at regular pace.

By the way, I think I might try the fruit cleanse starting tomorrow. It's just eating fruits and drinking water for a whole week. Wish me luck!