So I'm been thinking about all the wrong things I've done or may have done for the past couple of years. I was always able to just talk myself into thinking those were right things to do. Maybe I've been a bit too naive. I thought that by showing how much I care and love, that I could right all the wrongs. Every year, I say this is the last time I'll be doing something, then I find myself doing the same thing the year after. I really AM a fighter...but is it really worth fighting for now? Sometimes, I'm not even sure what I'm actually fighting for. I guess it's the feeling of knowing I won't give up without a tough fight makes it worth it. That sounds selfish. Maybe I am selfish and I'm only putting in countless hours on these projects because I derive a lot of pleasure from it. I enjoy working on them. Now I'm trying to convince myself that it's okay? Can you tell I'm trying to convince myself?
Anyway, you can't turn back time and you can't go back to the way things used to be, but you can make the best out of today and tomorrow and the day after. If two people care so much about each other, why on earth are they letting their pride keep them apart?
But wait, is realizing what you're worth and acting on it considered being prideful? Uh oh, my brain is fighting with my heart again. I guess I should give it a rest.
On another note, I'm singing for a wedding soon in April and I'm still thinking of good songs that are fitting. This is my first official wedding reception gig with my band! I'm kinda nervous...super excited!
I guess I'll just end this entry on a good note and keep it short for tonight....or this morning.... =]
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